IN DAD’S SHOES

 

From Linda Lee Greene, Author/Artist

 

Dad was in the garage,

Working on a car.

One of his,

Or one of his brothers’,

Or one of my mother’s brothers’.

It didn’t matter

‘Cause Dad liked working on cars.

Dad removed his greasy shoes and grimy socks before coming in the kitchen,

And as always before and again that time,

I noticed his feet –

So much like mine,

And I took the photo of his shoes to remind me,

And hoped I would be more like him in other ways with time.

©Linda Lee Greene, 2007

 

My father’s given name was Leland Edward Greene, but he preferred the shorter Lee Edward Greene. The briefer version won out and was his name for the entirety of his 89 years of life. I am named for Dad. The distinction is mine among the four offspring of my parents due to the order of my birth: I am the firstborn and because of that accident of chronology, by tradition the name was given to me. As time passed, however, it seemed meant to be, because among my three siblings and me, I resemble my father in appearance most closely. The jury is still out on whether or not I take after him in other, more crucial ways. But I try! I try!

          For the past several years, I have been asked to write the eulogies of members of my family whom have died during that time. The assignments began with the passing of my father on March 29, 2014. In tribute to him on this Father’s Day, I am including the opening paragraph of the eulogy I wrote for him, as well as an excerpt about him in GUARDIANS AND OTHER ANGELS http://goo.gl/imUwKO, my book in which the momentous historical events of the twentieth century, from World War I, the Great Depression, World War II, and beyond form the backdrop and my family holds center stage. My father’s grit is the quality that comes across most prominently in these passages, I think.

 

(Excerpt of Eulogy)

 

“Lee Edward Greene, 89, beloved son, brother, husband, father, grandfather, great grandfather, and cherished friend was one of the last of the Greatest Generation, a loving and dedicated family man who was a joyful and steadfast breadwinner. He was a man good with his hands whether the task was to fix a leaky faucet, to make a car purr, or to build a house. But essentially he was a simple man – he held no public office, never attained fame nor amassed a fortune, but within the small circle that comprised his life, he was the center that always held, the rock upon whom everyone depended, the flint against which everyone struck on his/her passage to adulthood. We aren’t likely to see his kind again any time soon…”

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(Revised excerpt of GUARDIANS AND OTHER ANGELS http://goo.gl/imUwKO)

“The one-room, Cedar Fork schoolhouse across the holler from the little log cabin on the near side of Peach Mountain, which nestled among the northern foothills of the Appalachians, was a tolerable two-mile walk in mild weather. It was an enjoyable walk actually, if one had time to swing from a grapevine on top of a high cliff and drop into Cedar Fork Creek for a lazy dip, or to stop by the Workman’s place for a quick smoke of corn-silk tobacco. But in snowdrifts as tall as thirteen-year-old Lee Greene, in threadbare clothes, thin hand-me-down coat, and barely covered feet in holey socks flopping in an old pair of secondhand shoes that were too big for him, the walk that frigid, Great Depression morning was worse than pure misery.

Lee’s chronically aching stomach was hollow and rumbling. His meager breakfast of cornmeal mush and sugar water was quickly wearing thin, but he had more important things than his stomach to worry about that morning. He was stewing about the small amount of milk he had drawn from their cow tethered in the yard just beyond the lean-to kitchen at the back of his family’s tiny log cabin. The two-story structure, built by Lee. his older brother, and their father only five months before, comprised a common, or front room on the main level, a primitive lean-to kitchen at the back, and a bedroom where his parents slept, housing the only closet in the place. A rough-hewn timber ladder gained access to the upper deck, where, in an open-to-the-front loft, all of the many children slept on crude cots, or thin pads on the floor. A large ceiling-to-floor fireplace of indigenous stones in the common room on the first floor was the only source of heat in the place. Felled tree trunks supporting its roof, a porch spanned the width of the front of the log cabin.  

The soil where they lived on Cedar Fork—thin, hard, and dry, a crusty layer of sediment topping a bedrock of limestone, dolomite and shale—made for poor farming and gardening, posing a formidable challenge for growing adequate food. Squirrels, rabbits, opossums and birds, hunted and brought in by Lee, the insufficient supply of milk from the cow, and scant eggs supplied by their paltry flock of scrawny chickens in the yard, were the only sources of protein for the family. In season, a large vegetable garden and a stand of corn were coddled into fruition in the poor soil, but only if they were favored with enough rain.    

His nose and eyes crusty from yet another head cold, gloveless hands thrust into the pockets of his thin coat, and his feet turning to blocks of ice, Lee trudged on to school, his white-blond head under his hat hunkered into his shoulders. Despite the fact that he might not make it through the perpetual hardships of his life, much less that cold, windy, and snowbound morning, his soul was full of dreams, his mind of intention, his body of vigor and endurance, and on the strength of pure power of will alone, and maybe some help from the man upstairs, Lee was determined that if he ever got out of his childhood alive, nothing would ever encumber him again.

The one-room schoolhouse was dark and frigid, and Lee, by design, was the first to arrive. The door was unlocked, as always, and Lee, halting for a few minutes to give his blood a chance to circulate again in his frozen limbs and digits, sat down on one of the benches. He would have wept if he had allowed himself to seriously consider his unfortunate circumstances—but not Lee! No, not Lee! Not the boy/man who would one day be my father. He had a chance to earn fifty cents that week and every week for weeks to come, fifty cents for building a fire in the “Warm Morning” wood-burning, heating-stove each morning before school. And By Gum!!! That was exactly what he was going to do…”©

 

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A MEMORIAL DAY STORY

 

 From Linda Lee Greene, Author/Artist

 

Long, long ago—when I was just a little kid, my family visited the graves of our dead relatives not only on Decoration Day, as Memorial Day was known then, but also on every holiday and at the change of seasons. Among Civil War and other war veterans, upper-crust titans, and lower-caste farmers of our region of Southern Ohio, most of my deceased maternal kin lay in our designated plot of the old cemetery. When spring changed to summer, we thinned the old-fashioned lilies of the valley and irises on their graves and then supplemented them with geraniums and petunias. We embellished each grave with perky little American flags, stars and stripes that waved patriotically from their wooden pegs. As the weather turned brisk again, we planted pumpkin-colored chrysanthemums at each headstone, the ebullient faces of the flowers reflecting the last rays of the sun. Next came festive Christmas wreaths, and finally, grave blankets of fresh hay before the January freezes blew in on the frigid north winds. There was never any second thought about those tasks of caring for the graves of our departed loved-ones. It was as natural and as necessary to us as breathing.

Back when my mother and her siblings were young, and to accommodate the whole large brood, Roger and Smoky, the team of workhorses, straining against their leather harnesses, pulled my grandparent’s heavy flatbed wagon on visits to the graveyard. Taking a rare break from the demanding chores of their farm, Mommaw and Poppaw were at the helm of the wagon. Dean, the baby of the family, sat between his parents on the high seat of the buckboard, a vantage point that looked out over the ample rumps of the horses. Piled in the bed of the buckboard, the seven other children sat on bound bundles of hay perched vicariously on the gaping floorboards of the conveyance. In perfect harmony and at the top of their lungs, and accompanied by Uncle Bob and Uncle Bussy on their mandolins, the group sang the old song, “On Top of Old Smoky,” while the groaning wagon appeared in danger of imploding from the weight of its human cargo and the rough terrain that suffered its challenged wheels and chassis. As the first grandchildren born to the family, my brother and I also rode in that wagon on some of those excursions, singing that old song in unison with our aunts and uncles at the top of our voices. As the newest youngsters in the family, it was we who then got to ride between Mommaw and Poppaw on the high seat that gave view of the broad backs of Roger and Smoky. I was a grown woman with a husband as well as children of my own when suddenly one day it dawned on me that the song was about the Smoky Mountains rather than a horse named Smoky. My Uncle Dean and I, during every gloriously long and adventure-filled summer of my young life on the farm, rode bare back together on top of our own Smoky many times, often singing the song. It was natural that the song took on the meaning of riding Smoky, the horse. 

  

I still can see in my mind’s eye the wobbly wheels of the buckboard and the iron-shod hooves of the horses kicking up clouds of dust on the deeply-rutted mud-caked lane that opened onto that hillside cemetery, the accumulated clamor of buckboard, horses, and human beings setting in motion the flight of collected birds in an old oak tree at the edge of the plot, the overlapped and snapping black wings of the birds, for those brief moments, nearly blotting out the sun. One of my prized possessions is the ancient earthenware jug that housed the grease Poppaw used to lubricate the screeching wheels of the buckboard, the interior of the jug’s fissured walls coated to this day with black and slick remnants of the grease. During those journeys, every once in a while, Poppaw yelled, “Whoa, Roger…Whoa Smoky,” and the buckboard came to a grating halt. While the horses snorted from their huge nostrils and pawed the ground with their heavy hooves, their hot bodies steaming and making auras of their perspiration all around them, down from the high seat on his long legs Poppaw jumped, pulling that jug from beneath the seat, a stick jutting from its open top. The working end of the stick wrapped in a grease-blackened cloth, he smeared the axles of the wheels with it.          

 

Many years ago, a psychic, supposedly consulting messages pertaining to me that emanated from an otherworldly realm, where, I am told, such things are known, and scripted within her crystal ball, told me that as a spiritual practice, I should visit cemeteries on a regular basis again. I am yet to wrap my head around the fact that she was privy to the habits of my family of old, and it wasn’t until I wrote GUARDIANS AND OTHER ANGELS, a book about my family, that I set out to take her counsel seriously.

 

This Memorial Day I come to call in my car rather than the old buckboard. At the entrance to the road that loops the deeply forested community of Cedar Fork in which the cemetery is located, although over the years several new homesteads have cropped up among the trees, the road improved, and the bridge that spans the creek refurbished to modern standards, still it feels as if I am entering an evolutionary backwater, a safe haven cut off from the rest of the world. Nevertheless, I am shocked at the greater accumulation of headstones in the cemetery as beneath the tires of my car the gravel on the lane pops and crunches. And as was the case during my childhood visits, huddled within the gnarled branches of a wizened oak tree on the boundary of our family plot, gathered birds are perched. Their noisy flight as I exit my car and approach the graves briefly blankets the sun. These days, the graves are almost exclusively under the custodianship of some obscure caretaker, and I imagine, with the assistance of the watchful birds.

 

Late, but better than never, I see fully the meaning behind the psychic’s counsel to visit cemeteries every chance I get. How easy it is for me to lose my way in imagining that life is one way when it really is something else. Few things are more accommodating than a cemetery in which to gain a foothold in reality.©

 

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The above essay is a revised excerpt of Linda Lee Greene’s GUARDIANS AND OTHER ANGELS, a book of historical fiction based on a true story. To purchase a copy of the book, please click the following URL:  http://goo.gl/imUwKO

 

Image: Dean and Linda on top of Old Smoky.

 

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